Monday, July 12, 2010

A Letter to Myself

Okay, I need to fix this whole not-writing-in-my-blog thing.

If my blog was a baby, it would have starved to death as a result of my negligence. Or child services would have intervened. But, I digress; if I'm going to improve on my writing skills, I need to WRITE. Even if no one reads this thing, it's still practice. SO, to do this, I'm going to find random creative writing prompts online and respond to them.

Writing Prompt: Write a letter to yourself that you will open in six months. Include your current accomplishments and concerns, and remind yourself of one thing from today that you want to make sure "future you" does not forget.

Dear Future Nicole,

Look at you! You have so much going for you. By the time you’ve read this, you’ll be done with your first semester of being Citamard’s historian. This (besides the fact that you’re in college) is your stepping stone to many adventures, so make the best of it!

I’m basically going to break it down for you: when you meet new people/people you think are really awesome and want them to think the same way, you react in one of three ways:

1. You stay incredibly quiet, unaware of what to say/nervous about saying what’s on your mind.

2. You say something/do something, and you immediately start freaking out and thinking that yo

3. You talk. You become *incredibly* “enthusiastic” (nerves on speed), and as such don’t stop talking/act abnormally.

There’s a recurring theme here, and it’s called being nervous about WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU. Honestly, who cares whether people think you’re weird or not? I mean, who isn’t? In fact, I would like to argue that pretending to be something that you’re not MAKES you weird! So, be yourself.

Never give up your happiness. You’ve worked so hard for it, physically, mentally, and emotionally! Keep it up; you deserve it! So keep doing what makes you happy; you’re a very talented person, and you deserve to pursue your dreams! Just remember that you need to focus on the things that will get you there. So don’t get involved in too much drama (unless it’s through theater), and you should be set!

Let go of the people that aren’t worth it, and HOLD ON to the ones that are. You’re going to need friends if you expect to survive this life. With that being said, don’t let any words, from friends, enemies, or acquaintances alike, get to you; cherish the loving words, learn from the constructive criticism, and toss the rest aside.

Stop being afraid; life’s too short for fear.

With love,

Past Nicole

PS: You won’t find it unless you stop looking for it.

PPS: Did you like how cryptic the PS was? I do. I just hope you remember what it means...otherwise the cryptic message becomes useless. But, I think you will. I’ve got faith in ya, self.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Here it Goes.

*cue dramatic music*

I'm bad at introducing myself. Really...the thought of initiating a conversation with someone who I don't know very well (or just don't know at all) is excruciatingly terrifying.

But I'll address my crippling insecurities little-by-little at another time; while I want to greatly improve my abilities to initiate communication with other people (and to ultimately make that good first impression), I think it's ridiculous how glorified first impressions are.

Okay, I know you're probably thinking, "well, what about those people who fall in love at first sight? Or those type of people who you just IMMEDIATELY know you're going to be best friends with?"

But what about the people who completely defy these first impressions? Be it positively or negatively, most people change; yet to a certain extent, many of us are trapped by the power we've given the first impression. It almost becomes a curse; if you don't make that great "first impression," then you basically lose that chance of ever forging what could have been an amazing friendship. Or worse; if you hold on to that positive first impression, you may never be able to let go of someone who is hurting you.

The point I'm trying to make isn't to completely disregard first impressions; instead, I'm challenging you to have an open mind; go beyond the stereotype and find out who that person is.

So, to stick with this philosophy, I'm not going to bother with writing a detailed introduction about myself. After all, what fun would there be if I just GAVE you all of that information directly? That's right; now you have the opportunity to brush up on your literary analysis skills!

*happy dance*

Oh, don't give me THAT look; even if you wanted me to just give it to you, I don't have all of this information myself yet. I am, after all, but a work-in-progress.

So, if you want to get to know me (or you just want to read what I have to say), then stick with it, and let's see where this thing ends up taking us.


I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day. ~Elwyn Brooks White